| Date: | 2006-06-25 00:30 |
| Subject: | so far i... |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  awake | | Music: | so sick so sick of being tired and oh so tired of being sick |
have been working for 5 weeks straight with no days off.
yesterday was my first day off!
i had to take off cvs and pacsun to go to the head automatica and taking back sunday show
angels and airwaves played but i dont like them. so there isnt a use to say there name
first we had the bbq at larrys house with mostly everyone in concerts
it was alot of fun. and we saw larry without a shirt on.. scary sight!!!
i had to cook cause no one else would and they were "too hot" so i did it
i wanted to gang up with everyone and throw larry in the pool..
he probably would have gotten mad but it would have been really funny
and i got to chill with my kyle<3 i love him so much!
which that was alot of fun driving around with him in the car
but yea the show was amazing. i almost started crying when head automatica came on cause i fuckin love them THAT much
the show all around was amazing...
while angels and airwaves were playing i was walking around
and i saw beck from glassjaw and what had looked like Daryll from H.A.
i was on the phone trying to get in touch with tom to see if he was working
and then i stopped and turned around to walk back to my gate and IT WAS Daryll.
just the funniest thing was that NO ONE noticed it was him
my jaw dropped. i didnt know what to do.
i didnt wanna be a retarted person and go up to him and be like. OMG YOUR DARYLL!!!!
that just would have been gay lol.
so i didnt do anything. i just drooled and walked away
he looked soooooooo good
hes the most amazingly hansome-ist good looking man i have EVER seen!... EVER!
it was just such a good show and i got to see my Matt<333333333333
sooo after the show erin and i went to go pick up our lauren dukez<3
and we met up with LeeMicheal<333 and all his friends
and didnt get back to erins house til 430
and then i passed out
got woken up 10 mins later
moved to sleep on the comfy floor with alot of blankets
and then ended up staying awake for another hour cause erin and lauren were being brokeback...
thats a whole other long story that i dont wanna get into... mental pictures
so now im awake doing nothing... being bored...
prob go to bed in a little while.
figured i would update.
night<3
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| Date: | 2006-05-30 23:24 |
| Subject: | yea... |
| Security: | Public |
my summer so far
includes...
nothing
and two weeks of straight working two jobs
no days off...
sucks
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| Date: | 2006-05-16 23:18 |
| Subject: | i cant wait... |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  annoyed | | Music: | Wonderwall - Oasis |
i cant wait to find another job
i cant wait to finally quit cvs
i cant wait for summer
i cant wait to see Greg tomorrow <3
i cant wait til schools over with. 2 more days
i cant wait til Erin moves back here
i cant wait for the summer
i cant wait for montreol
i cant wait to move out of my house
i cant wait to see between the buried and me next week
i cant wait to see taking back sunday, angels and airwaves, and head automatica on june 23rd
i cant wait for the summer
i cant wait til i can be free
i cant wait to see him <3
i cant wait til i can be with him <3
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ah im really excited...
school is over this week
just finals are left and im done
im really looking forward to the summer
i have alot of things planned.
im seeing this amazing amazing guy
and i really care about him
im just hoping nothing gets fucked up
i start working at PacSun this saturday
excited about working two jobs this summer
also excited about quiting cvs sometime this summer
and starting another job at a resturant
doing waitressing and then hopfully doing bartending.
and if that happens im def. gunna be changing my SN to something new.
hopefully six flags really soon.
im living the positive life lately.
i love it
oh yea. and my life IS complete
Erins moving to FS/WH so that makes my life soo much better<33
goodnight
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soooo
im getting a second job for the summer
im gunna be at PacSun in Roosevelt Feild.
ill be there in the mornings if anyone wants to visit *wink*
schools almost done with
i have like. a week of finals to go so thats def awesome right there
im in nassau concerts
and ive meet the guys of Bayside
and the guys in Sugarcult.
can wait to see what will be happening next semister
other than that my night at work was horrible
and then i went out. which kinda sucked
but i also had fun at the same time.
something has been bothering me for a little while now
about a wek or two now.
and i really havent been able to stop thinking about it.
and its something i prob. should start doing
which it was kinda good cause at the end of the night
while driving home from RT 110.
i ended up calling <3 Kyle <3 <-- haha --> hes just a friend relax lol
but i ended up calling him and having a 17 min convo with him about really personal things
that i dont think ive told anyone before
and i dont think he knows how personal the stuff i told him was... does that make sence?
i def love kyle. hes such an awesome person.
anyway, after i got off the phone with him i kinda figured something out...
maybe i have to be a total bitch to get a boyfriend
how does that sound?
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| Date: | 2006-03-04 00:08 |
| Subject: | interesting stupidity |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  drained | | Music: | Your Beautiful - James Blunt |
so this last week has been awesome. Carol and Tommy spuradictly planned a trip to Florida and took Rose with them. so it was me and my dad home alone all week which was definatly awesome. the saturday after she left my dad also went upstate so of course.. i threw a party at the house and it went awesome. its definately the best party that has ever happened and it was just so much fun. now i found out a day or two ago that Rose is gunna be leaving again to go see her son and daughter in law and her grandson for another week. and my dads prob gunna be going upstate again so its just a double whammy awesomeness. pluuuus its gunna be erins birthday weekend. so basically were having another party....:)
other then all the parties going around. tina is having a baby boy. we found out last thrusday cause i went to the ultrasound with her. sooo Jon and her have been picking out new names and such.. its been pretty hard doing that though. so i guess we'll just have to wait and see. they were over for dinner last night. i cooked an amazing dinner for them my dad and myself. so that was fun. my dad had to go back to work so they stuck around for a little bit and we were talking about me..:-/ i was just kinda telling them stuff that ive been going through lately. Jon had asked why i wasnt seeing or dating anyone and Tina was putting her 2 cents in. saying that she doesnt think im stable enough to have a bf. because of work and school. he doesnt feel like i would have the time or money to have a bf doing the things we would do and buying gifts and whatnot.. which i mean. im not really all about. i would really only buy gifts and stuff around special times. including birthdays, christmas, and major anniversaries.. like six months a year.. etc etc. and when it comes to going out. yea i like to go out and do things once in a while. but the people who really know me. know that i love to just be in a group and lay around watching a movie with everyone. so basically i come to the conclusion that my sister doesnt know me that well. which i guess i could have told everyone that before cause her and i dont really have that... connection.. or bonding periods that other sisters have. i kinda wish i could have that. it would just mean i would have another person in my life, besides erin, that i could talk to about basically anything.
anyway. today was a very relaxing day for me. i emailed all my work to my professor and told her that i had gotten a bug or something so i didnt have to wake up to go to class which was nice to just lay in bed for a while. then after laying around the house all day and cleaning because Rose was coming home, i drove out to Erins to pick her up from work. we went to go get out nails done. which is something i havent done since senior year in high school 2 years ago. so that was something different that i enjoyed. they cut my nails pretty short too. so after nails we went back to her house. she got changed. got her sister and went to the mall cause she needed to buy some stuff. sooo.. it sum up this i been pretty upset and a slight bit depressed cause of some problems.. so we went to this show.. and it was a bunch of really annoying like 13 to 16 age group.. erin and i were basically the oldest ones there. so this really bad hardcore band who played nothing but breakdowns and no lead singer was playing.. so it felt pretty good when i took some of my aggression out on these little kids by moshing and basically kicking the shit out of some kids. which was really funny for erin to watch cause she was laughing the whole time. for example... these kids did NOTHING but swinging their arms around.. so i walked into the middle of the pit and did some spinkicks.. and i ended up hitting this one kid pretty hard on the leg.. so after i did like 2 spinkicks i walked right out of the pit and was like "shit i hit someone really hard" cause the back of my foot hurt.. like my heal. so then i found the kid pretty easily that i kicked cause he was the only one limping out of the pit.. oh it was so funny.
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yea so...i love to come home and nothing is made for me for dinner. so now i gotta go cook something... or make something. which i dont know what its gunna be yet. theres a plate full of food for my dad. but not me. how kind of the bitch.for vday i chilled with erin. we meet up with this guy will who was in this band that erin is friends with. we went back to wills house and watched saw 2. and then he had a friend meet up with us. his name was john. and we all just chilled and went to huntington village. we had dinner at american burgur company. and it was just an awesome awesome time<33 will likes me and then john likes erin so it was all fun and then erin and i were talking about best friends dating best friends. its funny to us. this weekend was so much fun. i was basically with erin all weekend. friday i was home cleaning and stuff, saturday i drove out to erins and we went shopping<3 i got like 80$ worth of shirts. but there awesome and i love them. then i slept over her house. we bummed around the rest of saturday cause we were really tired from being in the mall for like 5 hours. haha only us<33. then on sunday we woke up and got ready. pack all our stuff up and drove back to FS we got ready at my house and we went to go to the ultra sound lounge to surprise John that we were going to the battle of the bands to see him.. well so erin can see him. is mostly it. i chilled with will most of the time. then after the battle of the bands. which sadly they lost:( we went out to johns house chilled there for a while then went to applebees<33 erin and i went back to my house and went to sleep cause we had to drive back to CP so i could drive her to work. i figured that i dont really like will that much, and i told him that before he could really really like me so i dont have to hurt him and etc etc. but he wants me to chill with him alone before i could make my decsion.. it might change. so he says. but thats gunna be tomorrow night. so i guess ill see what happens. hes def an awesome kid though. so im gunna go make something to eat now.
im donating blood tomorrow at 11. hopefully i wont pass out this time. so im gunna go eat alot now. thats what DOm told me to do. so yea. goodnight
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| Your Candy Heart Says "First Kiss" | 
You're a true romantic who brings an innocent hope to each new relationship.
You see the good in every person you date, and you relish each step of falling in love.
Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a romantic dinner your sweetie cooks for you
Your flirting style: friendly and sweet
What turns you off: cynics who don't believe in romance
Why you're hot: you always keep the romance alive |
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ive been to this bar around.. 10 times.
ive never gotten hit on anywone.
i take Sam to her first bar ever and get her drunk...
she gets hit on by like 5 guys.
i kinda got upset about that...
then i get two drinks spilt on me...
how much does that fuckin suck?
thank god this night is over.
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soooo wow, i haveny updated in a while. so id figure id do it tonight.. even thought i still have to take a shower and go to sleep so i can wake up for my 10am class in the morning. so the winter break came and left oh so very fast. Tina is now married and 4 months pregnant. she is audorable with her cute little round tummy that she has so far. and right now she is in sunny and warm, might i add, california. and i am very very jealous of that. nick and i have been talking about our spring break which is in just about a week. and i was going to drive up to vermont, to his college and sleep other there.. then on that friday we were going to drive back to the hometown that he lives in. and i was going to stay the weekend. i was so excited about these plans. until i realized the lack of money i have. which upsets me oh so much because i really want to get away for a little while.
school and work have been taking over my life as usual. even though ive been getting the lack of hours. i still feel like i work alot. it just doesnt show up in the weekly paychecks. i still have a secret crush on someone at work, even though ive told many people, other people like the lack of people who are reading this, dont know who i AM talking about. i just wish i could tell the person i crush at work and everything will be better. it just doesnt work like that though. AT ALL! the problem is i CANT tell him, unless i quit or leave my job. and THAT wont happen any time soon. i love being at CVS even though i get horrible customers who yell at me at least once a day and the fact that i complain about it all the time, deep down i love to work there. its no pacsun haha but i like working there.
i feel so good letting go and telling the people who read this thing about whats going on in the my life lately beside work. or school. this is the part of the LJ entry that i talk about my love life and everything thats been going on. i already announced about the crush at work, but i cant do anything about it so i guess it doesnt count at all. ive been trying new things at school. which means a new place that ive been hanging out at and meeting new people. i met this new person at the begginning of school and i def think hes cool. he has the personality of a dickhead but i feel thats theres just so much more to him that no one really knows. and i wanna be able to know whats under the dick mask that he has. i admitted to a friend about it and of course they told him about me liking him, i guess thats what you can call it. and this now leads me into my next "story" i kissed a boy at school and i didnt feel anything.. at all. its been a while since i actucally hooked up with someone, not like i forgot what to do or anything haha. but him and i randomly kissed it was a great kiss, but i just didnt want anything more of it. which i find odd. i do want a bf. but i admitted to evan tonight that i dont think i would have the time for one. which made me realize that yea i love to meet new people. and i do want a bf.. but lately i just dont want one. its odd to understand or to put into words. but its just weird for me. i guess ive just been through alot lately with guys that im trying to not just hurt anymore. i dont wanna feel the pain and i dont wanna cry at night anymore over something that happened. mentally and spirtually i think ive outgrown myself once again and matured some more. maybe people cant see it.. but i think i have. and then it comes down to my last story of guys. ive been hooking up on and off with this one guy. and i def have the feelings for him there, but its just odd cause i want to be with him whenever i can, the other day i found myself missing him so much and all i wanted to do was chill with him. but i couldnt. i didnt have any time. i had school then had to go straight to work. and then i needed to go home to get school work done. i see a different side to him and i realized thats what i really want in a person.. not to show to different sides. but i want someone who can really open up to me when were alone. i really wanna KNOW someone. and thats why it takes me back to my crush at work. i know him more that ive ever known someone in such a short amount of time knowing them. ive only known this person at work since hes been there. i know him more than (i think) his own brother knows him. and thats what i love so much. i feel like him and i are on the same maturity level and i can actucally sit there and have a conversation with him. i cant do that with most people.. and have it carry on for hours at a time.
wow. ive written too much. but it just feels so good to say everything without people knowing who im talking about. which i dont really want people to know names anyway.. they just get in the way of things sometimes. so goodnight everyone.. time for me to shower and get ready for the photoshoot tomorrow at store001:) im super excited about that!
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yea so long time no update. ive been working alot. and school has been crazy the past two weeks because of finals and whatnot. i meet someone new. his names tom. i dont know where things are going. but hes the best ass slapper ever and i love it. my ass was black and blue for a while. still is but its getting alot better now. ive been sitting down in front of my computer all day doing a re-write on a paper for english. and for the summaries of the book cause my professor said that if we dont hand them in he'll fall us for the class. so i gotta get those done by tuesday. he gave a few of the students til then since grades have to be in by thrusday. ive never read the book. and i have around 300 more pages to go. so im gunna go relax in the shower for a little bit. then go in my room and study for psych for a little more since that last test is tomorrow. screw math, i hate it, and that final is tomorrow. and im gunna start reading the book and writting down summaries on paper so i can just type them out. and ill have tomorrow during my break for classes to write them also. and hopefully . im praying that ill get all 300 pages done. im on page 82 now.. oh man im so dead. and i still have to fix up the paper. but screw it. i dont care anymore. this professor is fuckin retarded and i hate him sooooo much. on top of that work has been horrible. i hate working there so much because of the people i work with and the shifts that i have to close with at nights. im so ready to quit half the time. but i know i cant because the money is good and if i didnt have a job right now. id be screwed soooooo badly.
so Tinas wedding is moved up to January. i dont know if i said it already . i havent read my last update for a while.. so i dont remember what it says at all... and the reasn why its moved up is cause shes pregnant. and im gunna be an aunt. and its definatly gunna be a baby girl. we just know it. so other than that im gunna go shower now...
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| Date: | 2005-11-11 13:38 |
| Subject: | whoa baby! |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  chipper | | Music: | Grand Theft Autumn - Fall Out Boy |
yea so im bored.
im listening to the same song over and over again cause i love it so much
talking to some people now.
my schdule for work changed this week.
right now my car is at the machinics getting fixed.
so its gunna be making anymore loud noise. hopefully
i hope they are right with what the noise is coming from!
if not im gunna be an angry, very angry person!
so everyones away this weekend...
and when i say everyone i really just mean Ray Chris and Jim
they all went to go visit Dave up in Boston for the weekend.
im kinda happy though just cause i ended up working tonight and tomorrow night.
so that wastes 2 days for me, even though i would have loved to go with them
i need to go away
i had set a date and everything to go to Oneonta.
but decided not to go cause it was kinda pointless.
spring semister is gunna be a travling semister.
going to hopfully visit Bryan @ Oneonta, Lauren @ Plattsburg, and possibly Dave @ Boston.
so should seem fun.
i have no more to say
the end.
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| Date: | 2005-11-06 17:25 |
| Subject: | what to make my subject? |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  crappy | | Music: | dreaming a reality - senses fail |
i still have been thinking about alot of stuff.
work has been semi-better cause i at least get a day off (friday) and then have to work saturday
so i mean its def good.
hopefully im gunna be starting to work at pacsun again on sundays til winter break.
they are looking for more people to work.
so one night when i went to broadway to eat at panera i went in and the manager was there
so after i ate and talking about working at pacsun again the whole time to ray.
i realized i should just start working on sundays, all day which is 10-630
i would love to get back there and work.
i miss it so much!
ive been working there for a year already...
its gone by so fast.
yesterday i meet up with Erin at the mall.
i bought 4 new shirts that are amazing.
i love them!
i needed shirts.
most of them are ruined from photo chemicals
yea i dont feel so good right now..
so im gunna go lay down for a little bit
until i go out in like an hour or so.
just wanted to update with the pacsun news.
im really excited about finding out if im going back on sunday..
thursday is the day.
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october is over.
ive been 19 for like a month now haha.
im not seeing anyone
i wanna go to this show and not get killed cause bitches hate me.
i dont wanna work anymore cause it takes up too much of my time
i cant get any school work done basically.
i dont wanna go to school anymore.
im hoping that november brings better days then what ive been through for the past few weeks
and its been really nice out lately and not so cold
and i love it.
and i never want winter to come!!!
i was a whore for holloween
and i looked really good.
annnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd
Rest In Peace to MIKE. Your Loved and Missed!
Rest In Peace to John. The drummer from Bayside. Its upsetting that your gone. Your music is much loved.
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okay go to this link:
http://ipods.freepay.com/?r=24054976
to help me get an ipod. and if you do this too. you can also get an ipod. any ipod that is listed.. even the Nano.. FOR FREE!!!
you really dont have to do the second step of signing up for something...
just please please do it.. i really want one badly!!!
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| Date: | 2005-10-14 17:35 |
| Subject: | long time. |
| Security: | Public |
| Music: | Beating Hearts Baby - Head Automatica |
so yea my computer has been busted for a while.
and now its working again and i thank jon so much for that.
new job at CVS. im a photo lab tech there
and i hate it
but its good money and good hours
even though i never have time to do any of my school work.
but with the computer i should be able to now.. yay
im seeing an amazing boy.
his name is Jon and i love him to death...
we arent going out yet.
but weve been seeing each other for a month now.
i want to go out with him. even though it already feels like we are.
but blah blah blah.
schools good.
i hate half the classes.
meeting new people is always amazing.
made some great friends along the way.
which i fuckin love.
other than that.
people need to grow up and learn how to get over themselves.
fuckin losers.
im done
the end.
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| Date: | 2005-08-30 23:56 |
| Subject: | the summer of 2005 |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: | aggravated | | Music: | Devotion and Desire - Bayside |
Had a party?: yupppp
Gone to a party?: of course
Spent the night with someone?: ... no ...
Laughed until your stomach hurt?: duh! of course
Gone on a vacation?: yea
Tanned?: spent god. not at all!
Went camping? no, i was supposed to *sigh* *sad face*
Swam?: course
Went to the movies?: yeaa
Gone shopping?: duuuuuhhhh of course
Had a job?: yea, 3
Have you gotten sun burned yet? nope
Made a bonfire?: supposed to
Been outside during a lightning storm: yeaaa
Been to another state?: ... no
Been to another country? yup, italy
Changed someting about your appearance?: umm... nah
Been to the hospital with an injury?: nope
Commited a crime/broken the law: nope
Gone on a road trip?: nope, just to erins house
Dumped a g/f or b/f?: yea..
Kissed someone?: haha. thats for me to know.
Been to a concert?: i live for the music.
Been in trouble with the cops/parents?: parents as always
Had a memorable moment?: there were a few really good times. just nothing with a cute boy involved
Had a horrible moment?: of course i have. thats all my life is.
Made new friends: yup
Missed a friend?: yup
Slept under the stars?: no:-/
Thought about school?: of course. i cant wait to go back. 2 days!
Been to the beach?: yup, at night
Thought about a special someone?: yea, but he doesnt like me....:(
it seems like he does, but hes just flirty....
Spent the most time with: myself.... everyone
Wanted to Visit?: ... no where.
Taken a summer class? nope
Had a crush?: yea... *sigh*
Lived back at home?: i live at home, duh
Where are you going to school next year?: Nassau
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| Date: | 2005-08-30 23:45 |
| Subject: | *yawn* |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: |  crushed | | Music: | Brighter Than Sunshine - Aqualung |
so tired.
i worked all day
CVS training for photo tech 10 til 2
then PacSun 4 to 1030 (we got out)
school thrusday.
thank god.
cant wait at all.
i wanna be with someone....
which makes me sad cause i cant...
people fuckin suck!!!!
*sad face*
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two years ago today,
you left the world,
started to live in your own perfect world in heaven.
you are always in our hearts,
and there isnt a day that passes and we dont think of you.
we love you Lou
Always and Forever will you be missed
1968-2003
yea so today is kinda a sad one.
but i have work tonight
i downloaded an audio driver
so i can listen to music again.
and im happy
nothing relaly else to talk about
so
the end.
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| Date: | 2005-08-22 23:29 |
| Subject: | three freakin jobs. |
| Security: | Public |
| Music: | at your funeral - saves the day |
yea so
as everyone should know
im home from italy
i changed the format of my page
and my computer is finally fixed.
i had a virus so i got it reformatted.
then the internet wasnt hooked up anymore.
so finally its hooked up again
and i can check my myspace, go on AIM, and write in here.
i started to work at American Eagle.
but i had to quit today, and finish my week off
i was only working there one day a week
and im gunna be putting in my 2 weeks notice over at PacSun which i literally started to cry about
i love working there so much
but today i got a call from CVS and they are giving me a job in the photo lab.
which im really happy about cause i wanted to get a lab job.
but the thing is. there scheduling me monday - thrusday 4 til 10. and then one day during the weekend (friday,saturday, or sunday)
so its kinda like CVS isnt giving me like. the option of having a second job.
just cause if i did keep Pac i would onoly be able to work 2 days a week.
and i cant even tell my maneger what two days it will be cause i dont even know.
but i was telling Mike what was going on and i started to cry cause i seriously DO LOVE working at PacSun. that place is like a second home to me.
and i've been working there for almost a year now... in october it will be a year.
im gunna miss Pac so much. and I really wanna stay to work there... but i just dont think it will be possible once school starts.
the end
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